One day I was having a spurt of feeling extremely self conscious. Do you ever get that? One day you look at yourself and think “damn girl, you cute as shit!.” Then literally the next day (or even later that day) you feel like you can’t stand anything about your appearance. It can really put me in a low mood and make me feel like I don’t want to hang out with anyone because getting ready and having to look at myself will make me feel so down.
While I was feeling this way and scrolling through the explore page on Instagram, seeing endless “perfect” humans, I came across a post of someone getting freckles tattooed on their face. Now I have nothing against makeup, or wanting to look a certain way but it just really made me stop and think for a minute. Growing up I had a friend who would do absolutely anything to hide her freckles. They weren’t trendy at the time and she was extremely ashamed of them. Now all of the sudden they’re in style and everyone wants them. Why can’t we just let those individuals who spent years hiding them be in style and feel proud of them now? Why must we all try to embody this style and end up looking the same damn way? I wish we could learn to celebrate our differences. No matter what they may be. Gender, race, hair color, style, dimples, freckles, etc. Why is looking the same a goal?
I’ve started to try to combat these low feelings I get about my appearance by forcing myself to look in the mirror and not pick out what I find attractive but pick out what I don’t like and find a reason to like it. What makes me different? What makes me stand out in a sea of clones? Why hate this characteristic when it is the whole reason I’m me and not someone else?
I have had several moments when I’m in large crowds of diverse people and I get this overwhelming feeling when I look around and see so many unique faces and I find everyone so incredibly stunning. Everyone stands out because they are all so different and distinct. I never get this feeling in a crowded cafe in LA where everyone is seemingly “perfect” because there is no uniqueness. No one stands out in the crowd. If I value this in others so much, why shouldn’t I value it in myself as well?
Would love to hear your thoughts on this topic. I know it’s something easier said than done…which is why I wrote it. I’m going to force myself to reread it next time I get a wave of feeling self conscious. I hope you’ll do the same <3
“Let yourself bloom”